Have you ever wondered?

Have you ever been to the point where you feel like you a forgetting someone? Not like "dangit I can't remember that person's name". But actually forgetting someone that you love. It sounds horrible I know, but how should a person go around not doing that.

My grandfather passed away October 30, 2005. And his death has been a huge struggle for me. I remember going to my friend's wedding on October 29th and getting back at like 130 or 2 in the morning. I had to work at 1130 in the morning so I was hoping to get some kind of sleep that morning. But I was woken up by a phone call at 7 am. It was my mom telling me that my grandpa was in the hospital dying. I can't even tell you how I felt at that moment. It was like I had just been slapped in the face and tears were streaming down my face. And all I could worry about was that I had to work and how was I going to find someone to work for me at 7 am on a saturday morning. It was so discouraging. I almost didn't care but yet I did. I thought to myself screw it. I will just leave without caring. But no I went to work to try to find someone to work for me. I had tears sitting in my eyes just about ready to pour out. People asked me if I was okay and all I could say was NO and walk faster as though if I were to walk faster things might get better. Then everything somewhat fell into place...God provided..I didn't see it then but I see it now. I went home rushed around getting clothes to go home. I got into my car and left even though I left my roommates bunny at home by itself without feeding it. I didn't care. All I wanted was to get to the hospital..an hour and 1/2 away to see my grandpa. I never expected that he wouldn't really be concious. I expected him to be the same way I alway saw him.

God provided again. He got me there, my grandpa was still there. God hadn't taken him yet. I sat with him, held his hand...watched him die. For a day and a half. I was by his side...only gone for a little time. It was hard to sit there and wonder when God was going to take him, and why he was going to take him. I knew he was in pain, but why now..why not later. My grandpa wasn't going to experience anything that I would do in the future. He wasn't going to see me graduate, get married, have kids and he didn't even get to see further my desire for God.

I wanted him to aknowledge that I was there so badly. I didn't even get to say goodbye to him. If only my mom had told me that they took him to the hospital the day before. i could have seen him instead of going to my friends wedding. But my mom didn't want to ruin that day for me. All I got to witness was for one day he actually held my hand. That may have been the only time I remember ever holding my grandpa's hand for that long. It was hours and hours. I didn't ever want to let go. It just wasn't fair. why couldn't God have waited? I just kept waiting for him to open his eyes and say something to me. tell me that he loved me. i knew he did...he told me every time i saw him.

But God provided again....my cousin couldn't understand herself, why God would put him in so much pain and just make him suffer. I had no idea what to tell her. I just was hoping that God was having my grandpa hold on for my sister jennifer to get home from minnesota. Even though i didn't know what to say, my mom did. And as soon as she told her what a loving and caring and amazing God, God was, my grandpa died. I don't know if God was just waiting for that to happen, because He knew that my grandpa prayed for my cousin everyday. I don't know. But I just see that as a blessing now. It was hard holding his hand as he died. and seeing him in the room by himself afterwards. Having that picture embedded into my mind as the only way I remember my grandpa is not fun. I remember other things...but the sight of seeing him in that hospital room is the one that finds itself at the front of my mind whenever i think of him.

But God knew what he was doing when he gave me all the people who care about me. He knew that I was going to be going home to an empty house. He knew my roommates were in a different state. He knew I needed someone who would comfort me. And I am so thankful for that amazing guy whom I made call me and talk to me about anything but what was on my mind. I am thankful for my roommates who hugged me and loved me all they could even when I wanted to push them away and pretend all this wasn't happening. I thank God for my friend Alex. He made me feel so much better that monday morning after everything had happened. I went to work and he didn't care that I couldn't do it. That I didn't even want to do it. All I wanted to do was cry and he let me and he comforted me.

so why does it seem like i am forgetting him? I really don't know. It may just be easier. I tend to think that if I don't think about him I won't remember that horrible weekend. I even struggle going home and seeing my grandma home all alone. And then I think to myself why can't I do it if she can do it? Maybe I am not strong enough. I just hate the fact that sometimes I forget that he is dead. That he will never be home when I go home. Maybe that is why I don't like going home anymore. I thought about this in class yesterday and it scared me. I don't want to forget about him and I don't want to do the same thing to my grandma if I don't go home to see her.

Sometimes I try to think about the times before he died. For instance there were so many times that I told my grandparents that I would come home the next weekend and then I had to postpone till the next weekend...I did that 3 weeks in a row leading up to his death. the last time I saw him before he died was almost a whole month. I don't know what I was thinking. If only I had gone to see him I would have felt better about not being able to say goodbye. I didn't think it was going to be as hard as it ended up being, because two weeks before, I had found out that he had an abdominal aneurysm that had grown. But then they took tests and found out that it hadn't grown so he wouldn't have surgery. I was ready for him to die then. Or at least I thought. But obviously I never thought the day would come. And now I feel like I am losing him all over again.

Not Cool enough

so apparently my coolness points have dropped recently...but i guess it was probably deserved...so i go on without comments.

DANCE

as though no one is watching

LOVE

as though you have never been hurt before

SING

as though no one can hear you

LIVE

as though Heaven is on earth

~Souza

Another weekend goes by

So this weekend was somewhat eventful. Lots of things happened..yet I also had a lot of time to myself, which is always nice.

So Friday...
~I ran 2 1/2 miles with Becca. We went to a fun park and just explored till we were tired.
~got my hair cut at the beauty school. Believe it or not...it took 2 hours.
~went swing dancing....I was tired and I don't do organized dancing too well. I prefer my own moves.
~I ate some food at about 930 pm..I was starving.
~I hung out at the apartment with Larissa and Clay..we all snuggled on the futon...fun stuff. Or acually Clay shoved us up against the wall making it look as if we were snuggling.
~Went to bed sometime around 11 pm...except I didn't get to go to sleep because stupid drunk people were yelling below my window. Maybe that is why I don't like when people drink. But all I know is that I probably didn't fall asleep until around 1 am...so I might as well have stayed up with Clay and Larissa...but sometimes you just have to get away.

Saturday....
~Veronica, Larissa and I went out to eat breakfast together. We got up at 8 am. Yummy stuff. I had these HUGE pancakes and some potatoes.
~left to go to Topeka to see my sister, her husband, my mom, my dad, my other sister, and my grandma. Good times. We had some good food and went to SAM'S. Who doesn't like buying in bulk? I know I do when my parents buy it for me. Props to my parents.
~got back home a little after 9pm.
~put my laundry away that I had done at my sister's house.
~called Josh
~watched a movie...all my roomies were gone...
~started to fall asleep watching the manchurian candidate....good so far..but had to sleep so i wouldn't miss out on the good movie
~again I was kept awake for an hour or so because of stupid drunk people. I just don't understand why they have been so loud lately. I mean why can't they whisper when they go by places where people might be sleeping. Or maybe that is a clue that I go to bed too early.

Today....
~woke up at 8 am
~took a shower
~got ready for church
~couldn't wait till 12pm so i went to the 1030 service
~enjoyed church. spoke about servitude...matthew 20
~ate lunch
~went to walmart...see normal people like my roommates and I go to walmart at normal times of the day..granted I can't say 945pm is an odd time...but oh well. we got a lot of groceries..like $120 worth..well for two difference households...decided to buy cheaper toilet paper...8 dollars is just too much for 12 rolls. but charmin ultra is good stuff...but we went cheaper to Angel Soft. ewwww.
~started to make some Cappuchino chocolate Chip Muffins...yummy stuff. They are for Bible Study tomorrow at our apartment. We provide snacks..cause wouldn't God want us to have snacks and read the Bible???
~I am still currently making them...
~I plan on having biscuits and gravy for dinner...homemade.
~I also plan on watching Grey's Anatomy because it is like the best show ever.

Well that is it so far.

LOVE and HUGS!!!

My roommates and I

from the bottom up...Larissa, Veronica, Kaci and Me

Thursday...Thank God for another day, another chance to love the ones I love...

Today has been a pretty good day so far. I slept well last night. Got up at 8 am. and took my time to get ready for class at 9:30. Granted natural disasters isn't "that" interesting, but what can I say. Volcanoes just aren't as exciting. For instance isn't it much more exhilarating when you hear about liqueafaction of the ground(kind of like quick sand) and people getting swallowed up and then the ground hardening around them with only their heads sticking up out of the ground. I mean who wouldn't want to hear about dogs eating at people's heads.

Well enough of that picture.

I then proceeded to go to work, which I was early cause we got out of class early. Getting out of class early is one of my favorite past times. But the kicker is...I saw like 3 of my friends in the process. It was like a bible study reunion. Crazy times. Then I finally went to work at 11am. where I had a pretty good time. Throwing food at people is pretty humorous..especially when you have no idea who's food it was to begin with. But then 1230 came around and Ramon finally let me listen to the Retro Lunch Hour. Heck yes..I dance my 80's kind of girl dance. There was no stopping me. Geoff and I are great dance partners. HEHE! Then the monotony finally ended at 1:45 pm. Yep, I work a lot. haha. Then came the best part of my day.....can I just say doughnuts. I went to the bakery girl and asked if she had any old doughnuts form this morning. and she said she had a bag full. And I asked what she did with it and she said she was just supposed to put them in a bag. So my friend Jess got me the bag..for free. Trust me that boosted my spirits...6 doughnuts. But I did share with Ramon and Geoff my escorts...The three of us are walking home buddies cause we practically live next door to each other. I have only had 3 of the 4 doughnuts. I am not doing too bad. But I didn't eat lunch. I also figured that I was going to run 4 miles so what the heck.

well that is what has happened thus far today.

I look foward to:
running with becca
going to Campus Crusade for Christ
after nights

Wednesday..focus on God, focus on God, focus on God that is all I need to do right now!

FOCUS that is all I need right now. Things just seem to fullfill my mind nowadays. And I really don't know why. Probably because I don't know how to make God my priority. I am trying really hard. But sometimes I struggle. And sometimes my trying really hard just isn't good enough. I need to rely fully on God. I thought that was what I was doing, but obviously I have been slacking. God just wants me to wait....wait.....wait.....wait and wait some more. I guess that is how I learn patience. Which obviously I lack in that area. And frustration...I get way to frustrated. So sorry for that. You know who you are. And worrying, why worry when I am not supposed to? I have no idea.

Sometimes I think that the things I say aren't really what I should be saying. Even though I feel as if I needed to say those certain things. Why is it I always feel bad? Maybe I am too nice. I think I always seem to find fault in everthing I do or say. ERRR. I guess that is where I fall short....again.

What do I think I am ready for anyways? I have no idea!!!!!

I love this:

God's Love Story for Me

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone- to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved exclusively and thoroughly... But God, to a Christian says, no, not until you're satisfied and content with being loved by me alone. I love you, my child; and until you discover that only in me is your satisfaction to be found, you will never be united with another until you are united with Me- exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning...stop wishing...allow Me to bring it to you...just keep watching Me expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing that satisfaction knowing that I AM. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. You must wait. Don't be anxious. Don't look at the things you think you want. You must keep looking off and away, up to Me or you'll miss what I have to show you.

And then, when you are ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any would ever dream. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, I am working even this minute, to have you both ready at the same time. Until you are satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I have prepared for you, you won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me... and this is true love

This is ME!! and it is only Tuesday

Last night was Bible study. I was leading and I can't say that I excelled to much. But there are some great girls in my Bible study to help out. We were finishing up the third chapter of Romans. Good book I might add. Also we are going to do something fun next week. We all don't really understand the Law(old testament and new testament), so we are all going to look up stuff on it so we understand it better. So if anyone has anything to say please leave a comment. Oh yeah i forgot to say that my friends Becca and Drew made some mad chicken and noodle soup with mashed potatoes last night.

So it all started again this morning at 6:00 am. My alarm clock rang into my ears. AHH, I so wasn't ready to roll out of bed. The three hours of sleep I had didn't make me beautiful enough. But I finally fell out of bed after the snooze went off one more time. My roommate and I left for the Episcipal Church at 6:30 am. I am not episcipalian though, not that there is anything wrong with that. But Tuesday mornings are breakfast mornings. We serve breakfast from 7:30 am til 9:00 am for the homeless. It is a great experience. My expertice is eggs. My job is to make them look and taste spectacular. And trust me they do. The people that come in are great people it is a blessing to be able to sit and eat with them and have good conversation with them. God is working in all of our lives Tuesday mornings. As soon as we all get comfortable at breakfast it is time for my roommate and I to go to class. Oh can I just say that volcanoes are not as interesting as earthquakes. They just don't tickle my fancy. So I sat in class for a good hour and 15 minutes. Falling asleep only a couple of times. I think that is pretty good for only three hours of sleep last night. Then I went to work at 11:30 am till 1:45...yep I make the big bucks working those type of hours. I got evaluated. That was fun, except that I had to evaluate my own work in the process. Which obviously I think I am much better than my boss. But what does she know. All she does is buy and sell things on ebay while she is at work. At least I do my job.

But now I am home and I thought that I would update..cause I hadn't since yesterday...that is what happens when you become addicted. And now that I have three people reading my posts it is even better. hahaha.

So my plans for the rest of the day:
~go run 4 miles with my friend Becca
~praise God for letting me be able to run 4 miles
~watch Becca dry heave cause she has never ran 4 miles before
~do some homework( I have a test tomorrow)
~take a nap(which needs to be done now)
~eat dinner(hmmm what will I make?)
~read my Bible(since that is more interesting than homework)
~have some more God time(yay for prayer)
~hang out with my 3 roommates
~check my email, for the billionth time
~who knows maybe I will hear from someone who I have not heard from in like forever but I won't count on that one, I never do!
~go to sleep

*** these are in no particular order, except for going to sleep

LOVE & HUGS

Monday..what a lovely day God has given us!!

So I didn't have class today, at all! that means only three days of class this week. Wow! I feel like such a slacker. I also really need to start working on my Bible study stuff for tonight. We are doing an inductive study on Romans. My roommate and I are now at chapter 3 ver 22 I think. And we forgot about it so now I am left to look up stuff. Which will be good for me. The Bible is so much more intriguing now a days than it used to be. It is amazing how much desire God has given me lately. Also because I have not wasted 1100 minutes of my month anymore on the phone. Wow that just gives you so much time. Well it may also be the fact that my two classes a week don't take up too much of my time.

Well it is time to go!!.

LOVE & HUGS

You Might Be A Nerd....

PLEASE RESPOND



...if you own more than one of the following items: a microsope, telescope, a graphing calc, a laser printer, a laptop, a bowtie
...if you meet most of your friends in online chatrooms and never in person
...if you have a subscription to more than one math/science magazine(popular science, science news weekly, scientific american, discover, etc)
...if you've seen any of the Star Trek movies more than twice
...if you always made sure to sit in the front row of class, even if it was only a "boring art class"
...if you have ''biohazard" or "warning: signs in your bedroom
...if you regularly get together with your buddies to play ongoing Dungeons and Dragons or Risk tournaments
...if you wear glasses that are held together by tape
...if you can solve a Rubik's Cube without cheating
...if your SAT math score was more than 300 points higher than your verbal
...if you can count binary code as easily as with numbers
...if you can speak more than two languages fluently- especially if one of them is Latin or a computer programming language
...if you had a "perfect attendance record"
...if you frequently find yourself with more plugs than outlets
...if you own more than one of the following: an almanac, a globe, an atlas, maps of "ancient worlds", or mathematical art(Escher, fractals)


If you answered yes to 3 or more of the above, congratualations- you are a Nerd!

So i could only answer yes to 1 of those and if you count emergency exit signs and keep this door locked signs as in the same category as Biohazard and warning then i have 2 yes answers. but still i am NOT a nerd!

A weekend goes by

So this weekend was great. I went home on Friday, since I have no classes. Then I went to a bachelorette party on Saturday. I had lots of fun. We went and ate at a funny resaurant that brought our food to us on a train. Then we went to a play. It was humorous. I bought myself a drink...didn't get carded. Sad day. It is like when you are 21 you expect to get carded every once in a while, but then you don't. But I had a nerdy cow. It was good...but I will just say I don't drink much and it lasted me like an hour. and it was only a small cup mostly filled with ice and you know how much it cost? $5.50 , and i was nice enough to tip a dollar. So $6.50 for an hour of fun. haha. But then we came back to the hotel and had some fun snacks. ANd then had some jello(with some fun) and some nasty wine. not too impressed. but what can i say i didn't pay for it. And i had not had really anything to drink since october...definitely not a drinker. I perfer yummy coffee beverages. We stayed up talking till 3 am...someone would be proud of me. sad thing is i got up at 8 am. then we had pancakes, eggs, and bacon and sausage. Good stuff. I love breakfast. My favorite meal of the day.

i am still realizing that I get mad when people say they want to be friends but then they don't let you be their friend..i am speaking of a certain someone who i have not talked to for a month. errr.

LOVE & HUGS

Pathetic

So I just wanted to say YES!!!! 2 total comments... I am amazing!

Hmmm..I am finally understanding

As I sit at my parents computer..I notice that my hands are starting to go numb. Meaning: it is too cold in their house. I just don't understand. I only thought it was my roommates and I who like to play freeze-out all winter long.

I also realized that I am indeed computer illiterate. I was trying to add a photo of me...so everyone could see my beautiful face, but I couldn't figure out how. I downloaded that dumb hello thing..but where did that get me? NOWHERE!!! I also realized why it was making me seem like I enjoyed to post entries at odd hours of the morning. It was indeed because I had it set on some time zone in a totally different country. Crazy huh?

I then realized after typing all of this, that I will be the only one to read it. Despite maybe the one person who has ever commented on any of my postings. So props to her.

Indescribable

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky
and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful,
untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom
Indescribable,
uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky
and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful,
untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
You are amazing God
Indescribable,
uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful,
untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
Indescribable,
uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
Incomparable,
unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

The Day After

Why is it that things are just difficult? How come things seem so hard at times, but yet things won't be hard for long because God is there?

Why is it that I wait for a response that I know I will never get? Why keep waiting? I know that I am not supposed to hope or wait or long for things that are not in God's plan. I need to be patient and wait for Him. But why can't I just stop caring? Why is it so hard for me to let go? Why do I keep thinking things will just turn out how I have always hoped? There are so many questions. Why does a guy have to be frustrating? Why does he say things he doesn't really mean? Why does he just set me up for disaster? I don't know the answer to any of these. Then I wonder why I fall for stupid lies, maybe they aren't lies but they feel like it. ERRR! But yet I still care for him, I still worry, I still wonder, and I still long for him.

Happy Anti-Singles Day!

Happy Anti-Singles Day!!!

So today has already started out good and bad.
I went to breakfast this morning...or made breakfast this morning. Went to a store that was closed to get potatoes and then had to go to walmart instead. then I had to take my roommate who has a broken body to the trainer and then I was off to class. But I find out when i get to class, my class has indeed been canceled..after i walked all the way to there(which is clear across campus from my apartment). He didn't even email us about it. How horrible is that. But the good news is that I now don't have class the rest of the day and I still have a test for that class on Thursday. YAY!! So now i am just hanging out in the library, waiting to go to work. But if I would have known that class was going to be cancelled i would have stayed and helped clean up....professors are just ignorant sometimes.

so the plans for the rest of my day: yep i have lots of plans. i mean it is valentine's day right?

I will work till 2 pm, then I am going to go run 3 miles with my workout buddy. then we are going to go get ready for a romantic dinner..haha romantic...so my romantic dinner will be with God and my good friend Becca. But still..it will be lots of fun. Then I am going to make my evening be even more romantic. I am going to take my laundry to the laundry mat...along with my date(my homework). If you remember correctly I have a test on thursday for the class that i did not have today. and that is it. my evening should be spectacular. I love my life..and everything that goes with it!!

So here is my fun phrase for today..or verse whatever you want to call it.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8
4 Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant 5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; 6 it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. 7 It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never ends. But as for prophecies, they will come to an end; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will come to an end.

Yep this is definitely written on the sidewalks of my campus...which is awesome!!

God is SiMpLy AmAzInG!!

What is God doing for me?

God is doing so much in my life right now. He is providing for me constantly. He has given me time, patience, love, strength, desire, compassion, emotions, another day to live, family, friends, roommates, and so much more. More than I can even fathom.

I struggle through days wondering what he might possibly be doing with my life right now, but I know that it is something good. Something on his schedule, not mine. But why do I struggle with this? Why do I want what I want right now? Who really knows. I don't even know if what I want is really what God wants. But someday I will figure all that out. He just needs to give me a little more patience and strength to not worry and I should be just fine.

I do long for many things, but God has told me to quit longing for those things right now. I need to pursue Him fully right now and Him alone. That it something that can be said much easier than done. Although, I am trying really really hard. But constant reminders of something else I want always seem to pop into my head. How do I solve that problem...prayer..and prayer from others.

I was told this weekend that other things in my life shouldn't be in a race with God. It shouldn't be, for example, that guy I like racing against God. It shouldn't take days, months or years to decide who is going to win. It should be God from the start. Why is it that I stumble in the department? I don't know. But God is going to win. He will prevail.

Take me away
Take me away

all that I love
is You, is You

Take me away
Take me away

Cause all that I love,
is You, is You, is You

LOVE and HUGS!

So begins another horrible day

So again I go without any comments. I just don't understand. Apparently I am not entertaining enough for the likes of everyone in this blogging community. But you know what? While most of you college age students have school today. I do not! SO there! Well time to study for a test! Well after I have some God time. Because who can go without God?

Untitled
by Myself

I go to a place by myself to wander around,
Hoping to see what I will accomplish or even what I will love.

I have looked towards the Heavens and at other times places that are not profound,
Thinking that my life is pointless or if I deserve the love from the One above.

It scares me to think that life is so short,
Having only so much time to figure it all out.

Everyone knows that I can build a strong fort,
The one in my mind, the one in my heart, even when they defend me from what my life is about.

To actually be heard is a struggle in my life,
Sometimes I feel eager, selfish or merely angry at the world.

I look to God for answers and don’t find them to be right,
How is it that things can seem so great but just as you get comfortable life seems to be swirled?

If only I knew what to do,
Would it be so difficult and hard to pursue?

I know that He is here and wants me to ask for help,
But what can I do when I can’t find my way?

I can go to others for help,
Which is why there are people he provides for me, the ones I can run to.

That is why I write this to you,You listen, you care, and that is why I know that you will always be there.

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9

So I am sitting at my desk at this very moment wondering what I could write about that would make my post seem interesting enough for people to want to read. And I have become unable to think of anything "that" entertaining. I mean my life is just full of entertainment but sometimes not enough.

So last night I made five cents off a cookie. This random guy bought me a cookie. It was probably the sweetest thing a guy had done for me in a long time....probably since the end of october early november. Which was a long time ago. And if anyone...meaning if anyone but myself is reading this would wonder how I made the five cents, I made the five cents by getting his change. YES!! Doesn't that just make a mediocre night spectacular?

Then today something even more exciting happened. I got to watch how a sheeter worked. If anyone would like to know what a sheeter is, it is a machine that flattens out pizza dough so it is easier to put into a pizza pan. Let me tell you I enjoyed the special treatment of knowing how one works. If anyone gets a chance to see one in action take the chance. Believe me you won't regret it.

SO it is the countdown to Valentine's Day. They day for the ones in love. Therefore I have a date with one of my friends. It will be the best Valentine's day ever.

The final countdown is about 4 and 1/2 days. I gave today a half.

I get to work out and then enjoy a romantic evening at a good restaurant. DOn't really know how romantic but it will be entertaining.

So I will leave you ALL with this....meaning hopefully one of these days I will get a comment:

Jeremiah 29:11-13
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me wth all your heart.

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. Proverbs 4:23

Soooooo here I am LORD!! Send Me!!

Today has been spectacular. God is SIMPLY AMAZING!!

Although there are others in my life that just make things more difficult for me. For instance my Dad. Why do people seem to think they need to keep bringing things up that just make matters worse! I wonder this every time I talk to him.

Eat Lasagna..and be happy!