The Day After

Why is it that things are just difficult? How come things seem so hard at times, but yet things won't be hard for long because God is there?

Why is it that I wait for a response that I know I will never get? Why keep waiting? I know that I am not supposed to hope or wait or long for things that are not in God's plan. I need to be patient and wait for Him. But why can't I just stop caring? Why is it so hard for me to let go? Why do I keep thinking things will just turn out how I have always hoped? There are so many questions. Why does a guy have to be frustrating? Why does he say things he doesn't really mean? Why does he just set me up for disaster? I don't know the answer to any of these. Then I wonder why I fall for stupid lies, maybe they aren't lies but they feel like it. ERRR! But yet I still care for him, I still worry, I still wonder, and I still long for him.