Wednesday..focus on God, focus on God, focus on God that is all I need to do right now!

FOCUS that is all I need right now. Things just seem to fullfill my mind nowadays. And I really don't know why. Probably because I don't know how to make God my priority. I am trying really hard. But sometimes I struggle. And sometimes my trying really hard just isn't good enough. I need to rely fully on God. I thought that was what I was doing, but obviously I have been slacking. God just wants me to wait....wait.....wait.....wait and wait some more. I guess that is how I learn patience. Which obviously I lack in that area. And frustration...I get way to frustrated. So sorry for that. You know who you are. And worrying, why worry when I am not supposed to? I have no idea.

Sometimes I think that the things I say aren't really what I should be saying. Even though I feel as if I needed to say those certain things. Why is it I always feel bad? Maybe I am too nice. I think I always seem to find fault in everthing I do or say. ERRR. I guess that is where I fall short....again.

What do I think I am ready for anyways? I have no idea!!!!!

I love this:

God's Love Story for Me

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone- to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved exclusively and thoroughly... But God, to a Christian says, no, not until you're satisfied and content with being loved by me alone. I love you, my child; and until you discover that only in me is your satisfaction to be found, you will never be united with another until you are united with Me- exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning...stop wishing...allow Me to bring it to you...just keep watching Me expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing that satisfaction knowing that I AM. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. You must wait. Don't be anxious. Don't look at the things you think you want. You must keep looking off and away, up to Me or you'll miss what I have to show you.

And then, when you are ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any would ever dream. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, I am working even this minute, to have you both ready at the same time. Until you are satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I have prepared for you, you won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me... and this is true love