EXCITING NEWS!!!

I AM ENGAGED!!!!!

Ready

I am ready for finals to be over, ready to get on with my life, ready for change

OOOOOHHHHHH MY!!!

what a crazy weekend

My life......

My life is amazing right now...at least for the most part. There have been ups and downs and who knows wheres. yep..wheres..that is my new word.

Well, school has sucked thus far. I am ready to be done, but then again I will never be done it seems. I like some of my classes, well actually they are all interesting except that one doesn't teach me anything that I want to know. I am far behind in all of them, and I really don't know what I need to do. I don't like that feeling.

Emotionally, I am constant. I miss people I don't see, I want to see people that I can't see and I want to have less stress. Stress gets me in a bad mood. I don't like to worry, yet I do it ALL the time.

Relationship wise. I don't see most of my friends whom I wish I could see everyday. I have met many new friends, but the ones I want to see I don't have time for. Sad day I know. I work about 30 hours a week, which isn't horrible but the schedule is so broken up that it feels like I work all day everyday and take classes and do homework and try to fit a social life into it all in 24 hours. I have amazing roommates whom I love dearly. I am excited for Larissa's wedding. It should be amazing. I love the time I spend with her...I miss my daily laughs...p.s. squash is fun with Larissa! I also have an amazing boyfriend whom I have been dating for 2 months this coming friday. I am so very blessed for him to be in my life. God knew exactly what I had been waiting for. He is kind, sweet, generous, loving, affectionate, God-centered, strong, courageous, dependable, trustworthy, loyal, understanding, considerate, good at spoiling me, has big muscles to protect me, can cuddle well, has an amazing family, and he keeps things interesting. There are many more wonderful things I could say about him, but I will stop here.

Physically. I am always tired. Work, school, and stress are wearing my out. I don't like it. I keep telling myself that I need to go to bed earlier..but nights are when I get to see my boyfriend or my friends. I also am working out with Larissa...we will look hot for her wedding.

God:
I will not lie...I have seemed to push him aside a little bit. BUt I am realizing now that I have been dumb. Last semester and this summer were amazing. I was very close to God and now I just feel like I run out of time. Not a good thing. I should always have time for God. I have been better lately. I just need to keep everything in perspective. Pushing him out of my life would be the worst possible thing to do ever. Where would I be without him? Nowhere!!! I have to make time..He deserves all the time I have.

WEll that is about all that I have to say right now!!

HI to everyone who reads this!

To all who realized that I hadn't written anything for a while

HI Ramon

Being pursued...What a crazy thing

So my life has been wonderful the [ast few months. I have enjoyed every minute of it. Even the tough parts . I have been pursued by the God and by someone who God created. Without even asking for it. I am that blessed. I really am. I have more than I have ever wanted right now. But I get scared. I want something so badly, but then get scared. Why is this? I really don't know. But it is all in God's hands and that is all I really need to worry about.

God has provided so God will work in my life with what He has provided and use those provisions for the way that He wants them to be used.

YAY God!!

I am starting something new....

i am going to be bold, do something that i don't even think I can do. I probably can but I just have no confidence. The fear of disappointment..from myself. Wow, high expectations for myself can really cause me trouble and stress. One would think I would work on that. But it is more difficult than you could ever imagine.